When someone close to you passes away you don't anticipate the "New Firsts". The new firsts are all of those things that are happening for the very first time without your loved one.
My mind frequently reaches for the phone to call dad because he would find this or that funny, appreciate what I'm dealing with or have an idea of how to deal with a particular situation. My brother and I laughed and cried yesterday as we worked on his car, reminiscing about dad's knack for pinpointing the obvious problem that so often easily eluded us.
"New Firsts" aren't fun.