I can't shake this feeling. With as busy as life and ministry is, with as many activities as my kids are involved in, with all of the various things that I oversee and with as little sleep as I sometimes get, I just can't shake the feeling that this is of extreme importance. By this I mean, this, this website, these writings.
I think about it daily. It follows me around like some sort of lost puppy that refuses to go away until it's acknowledged. It reminds me a little bit of my dog, Coley. She's 7-8 years old and lazy but when she's hungry, you know it. Even to this day it takes me several minutes to figure out why she's following me all over the house, just staring at me. Finally I realize, she's hungry. I feed her and she disappears again into her busy schedule of sleeping and shedding.
I literally feel like this effort follows me around and stares at me...everyday. It's just waiting. It wants attention. This whole idea got me thinking about the things in each of our lives that we don't give the right amount of attention to. Think about it, what hangs over you? Not in a guilty, shameful way but in a way that gnaws at your spirit? In a way that keeps you up at night thinking, "I need to do that" and pops you off the pillow in the morning with the thought of, "Maybe I could do that today?"
Here's a thought. Instead of just dismissing it, make a plan to do something about it. Not always perhaps, but maybe it's God speaking to your heart. Maybe God is whispering, "Don't forget about this..." For me, it's this. For you, maybe it's a relationship that needs to be restored, maybe it's a calling that God placed on your life years ago that you've allowed to get pushed to the back shelf of life, maybe for you it's an idea that sounds crazy and unrealistic but maybe, just maybe, it could work.
There's a reason that I can't shake this feeling and there's reason that you can't shake your feeling. Stop fighting it.